Wednesday, March 23, 2016
I did not want to place my child. I did not want to give up my rights to be his mom.
I had to. I had to give my baby boy a father. I had to give him the best life possible because he is an angel.
I am not a high school dropout. I did not grow up having "daddy issues". I am not worthless.
I had my Masters Degree in Elementary education when I placed my son. I grew up with the most amazing dad in the world, which is why I wanted to give my child the same. I am worthy of love and respect just like everyone else.
I did not place my son and walk away. I did not make this decision because it was the easy way out.
The easy way out? I see my son, the love of my life, twice a year. I hold him twice a year. I kiss him twice a year. I say "I love you" to him twice a year. And I am considered one of the lucky ones!
It is an impossible choice. Do I regret it? Never.
My impossible choice gave him more than I could have ever imagined.