First of all, tell us a little bit about yourself.
My name is Jill, I'm 26, and I live in Arizona just outside of Phoenix. I found out I was pregnant in October of 2008. I considered adoption on and off throughout my pregnancy but I simply didn't think I could do it - I'd been through too much. In the months before I got pregnant, I was fired from my job and dumped by my boyfriend, and my father had died of a brain tumor. I couldn't stand the thought of one more heartbreak. I knew my baby's father wasn't going to be much of a help, but I didn't care. I had made my choice and I was going to single parent. I gave birth on July 7th, 2009, to a beautiful little girl I call Roo for privacy reasons. I took her home, and I was her mommy. But adoption was always there in the back of my mind, and as the weeks went on I finally found the strength to do what I thought I couldn't. When she was seven weeks old, I found the family I knew was meant to be hers. I placed her with her parents, P and M, on September 9th.Roo's is an open adoption. I get regular e-mail and pictures and videos, and I've had six or seven visits since placement. My most recent visit was just after her birthday. I might be slightly biased, but I think Roo is the prettiest, sweetest, smartest one-year-old ever. She is my favorite person in the world.
I absolutely love the title of your blog- The Happiest Sad – how did you come up with that?
My mom and I were driving home from our first meeting with Roo's parents. As scary as the idea of adoption was, I knew I'd found the right family. I loved them already. I was trying to explain my feelings to my mother. I told her that I was so happy that P and M were getting a baby, I almost didn't even care that it was my baby they were getting. I was sad that she wasn't going to be mine any more, but it was the happiest sad I'd ever felt. When I thought about it later I decided the phrase was an apt description of adoption and I used it for my blog.
When and why did you begin blogging?
I started blogging two days after I met P and M, at the end of August 2009. My biggest worry with placement was that my little girl would grow up thinking I didn't love her or want her. I started the blog for her to read as she gets older, so she can see for herself how very much I love her, how I wanted more than anything to be her mommy, and how I loved her enough to do what was best for her, even though that meant placing her for adoption.
Has the response to your blog posts been mostly positive or negative or a mix of both?
I'm a lucky girl - the response has been overwhelmingly positive. I've gotten more love and support through my blog than I ever could have imagined. I'm sure there are people who take exception to some of my thoughts and opinions but they've kept quiet, for which I am grateful.
Do you have any advice for anyone else thinking of starting a blog?
I don't know if I feel qualified to give anyone advice! I guess I'd just say that if you're going to blog, do it for yourself. Don't worry about what other people might think, or what you think they want to read. Write what you feel, or what you personally would want to read.
Mostly, just write!
Thank you, Jill, for taking a few minutes to answer these questions. Be sure and pop over to The Happiest Sad and tell Jill hi!