Saturday, November 29, 2014
Thankful For Being Lucky
It's Thanksgiving week. I've been with family all week like many of you probably have. This year my mother was still in a cast due to a broken arm she got at the end of September. So I was enlisted to make Thanksgiving dinner. Fear not, I've done this two times before due to her having a very bad knee and by now I'm much more confident and I am able to nearly recite the recipes and get my mother out of my cooking if need be. Third time through, I did well yet again. And now I have a post to write.
I'm no fool. I know that I got extremely lucky with my adoption agency, the family I placed with, the willingness of everyone in my family and my boyfriend's family to step out of our way and make the right decision for our child, and that my child was born healthy and well.
I am thankful that at a time when I needed it most, my luck turned for the good in a serious way. I am thankful that my son's parents continue to involve me in his life and keep me updated on his life. I am thankful that my son is growing up tall and handsome. I am thankful that he has a very creative mind and soul. I am thankful that he has loving, wonderful, and capable parents who can raise him the way that I wish I could have. I am thankful that they have become my friends and people that I can talk to not just about my son, but about many other subjects as well. And I am thankful that I got so very very lucky when I needed it the most.
I wish you all the luck that I've found. I hope you all have had a wonderful Thanksgiving with your families. Know that while I am thankful for all of these things and am grateful that my son will get the life he deserves, it is a fact that I have to live with every day and it is a fact that pains me every day. But I always knew I would live with this better than raising my son in a home that would have been unstable at best and hostile and unbearable at worst. May you all find peace with your decisions as I finally have.